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Weeeeehihihooooooooo~ Okay, so just finished the Zim marathon with Benji and I must say my roommates will hate me for the next few days as I spout lines like a madperson. XD "Evil Dib-worm-pig-weasel-....PIG!" The number of varied epithets that Zim conjures up for Dib is endlessly amusing: Stink Human, Dib-Worm, Dib-Human, Earth Monkey, Human Monkey, etc. Benji and I talked about how deep Zim really is once you look beneath its pure entertainment value. Really, it is. Think about it - Zim is just a child (granted an Irken child so there wasn't much of a childhood at all) stuck on a foreign planet under the delusion that someone actually cares about what he does. He had to have been capable in the first place or else he never would have made it to Invader status and we decided it was his over-confidence and unbridled zeal that really played in his downfall. He has some real fears (like being made into a side-show freak for humanity and experimented on only because he's different and 'an alien') that fuel many of his actions and he's one of the only really intelligent people on Earth. Dib is the other, Gaz is smart but doesn't give a wit, and Mrs. Bitters is just...Mrs. Bitters. Dib is a case-study in itself about how people never listen to the truth because it's often too much for them to handle so they ridicule its source in an attempt to hide it so they can continue in their dull and 'normal' lives. I love Invader Zim. GIR kicks arse. I'm rooting for Zim to destroy the Earth, really I am - just so that he can prove to the Tallest that he's not completely incompentent, just overly zealous and needing to prove his worth. I may talk more about this because I really love Invader Zim as a series. Seriously.
But now back to my spiffy day of material happiness. xD After the train ride we get to LA and find out that Little Tokyo is exactly five blocks from Union Station, so instead of paying money for a useless bus Benji and I walked down there and had great conversation. At least I hope it was great conversation. I think it was. xD Got to Little Tokyo and went shopping. Shop we did and shop well. Very well...I will proceed to be broke for the rest of my life. XDDDDDDDD Went to an omiyage shop first and bought a handkerchief because I was tired of using restroom paper towels since they destroy the environment and this I can just keep with me to use whenever I feel like it. It's purple and quite handy for multiple purposes that I will sooner or later discover. xD Then we wandered to clothes stores for a bit and stared at pretty Japanese yukata because they're cool like that. Benji, if you're reading this - we still need to find a curtain for your bed so the EVIL of the Earth Monkey Roommates and their STINK lights don't wake you in the morning anymore. Went to another omiyage store and made my second/third purchases of the day, a 5$ Evangelion game in Koren that resembles Pog (and which I'll never know how to play, but the pictures are fun) and a sandalwood fan that I'm going to use whenever I go out now because smog just smells icky. Stared at lighters and contemplated getting one, but didn't as I'm sure I would have burnt myself playing with it. Fun.
PARAGRAPH BREAK! XD Today was the day of omiyage stores and manga because after the second omiyage store we hit another one but didn't buy anything. Tempted we were, but reserve we showed and nothing did we buy. XD Then it was to the comic book store across the way and nothing was bought there, but I read through a Gothic Lolita Bible Collection magazine and was greatly amused and found my urge to buy clothes rising. It was a rare and singular incident. Very strange, but when you consider my taste in clothes and the styles they show in Gothic Lolita magazines - it's only natural that I'd want to buy something because DAMN GL has beautiful clothing. Wandered and found food at a really good Korean restaurant - I ate unagi (eel) and was greatly pleased. I've been missing Asian cuisine and eel is just one of my absolute favorite dishes. Went to clothing-type store afterward bought a new shirt and was very much pleased with myself as it's very cool and people keep thinking I have a cast on one arm because the shirt itself is black with a newspapery-type vinyl print on one sleeve and chest area with belts running down the right side! It's fun to wear and I have it on right now. It's pwetty.
Found a discount-ish anime store called Jungle and spent more money like the freak that I am. Some random Eva 'girlfriend' book that featured Shinji and some random lady named Maya. I don't know. It was cheap and I was on an Eva high after the Korean game... It has pretty art. XD Also bought some presents for my best friend, but shh - that's a secret. Went to the mall with Kinokuniya in it and tried to find a bathroom and an ATM so Benji could get money and we could change into our new shirts. Benji bought the coolest shirts and a pair of fancy shoes that actually FIT at the place I bought my shirt - so we're very much broke and very happy. She'll probably post about what she did on her site, so go look. Bwah. I love you, Benji~! In trying to find the bathroom we discovered that it was closed. CLOSED. ... It had operating hours on M-F from 8:00AM to 11:00PM. WHAT KIND OF FLIPPIN' BATHROOM HAS OPERATING HOURS?! ... it sucked. We went to Kino's and bought manga. XD Bad us, bad. We were already broke enough. I now own Juuni Kokki 7 featuring TAIKI! XD and the first volume of Tsubasa because CLAMP is EVIL SOUL-SUCKING GENKI. ... I hate them. So Much. /huggles Tsuabasa/ Oh! At the first comic store there was this lifesize cardboard cutout of Chi with the most interesting sign on it. I have a picture. XD I was amused, will post once developed. XD Went to Marukai (food mart) and bought food because I've been lacking in that lately... Some random guy asked us in an all too creepily innocent manner if we wanted him to carry our groceries back to our car for us and we refused. Vehemently. He didn't work for Marukai and he approached us on the street. It's funny how both Benji and I gripped our packages tighter and prepared to swing our heavy bags at his head if he moved again. He was spooky, but he left after we REFUSED to let him near us and let his voice drop three registers to where it was normally rather than the sickly sweet "I'm a Pedophile Rapist" voice he was using earlier.
I hate humans.
Then we found the key to the bathroom, changed into our nifty new shirts and went back to the train station. It was about 4PM and there were some people shooting a movie while we sat there and stared at them. The guy was in a leather jacket that I wanted to mug him for, but I figured with all the cameras around it wasn't wise. xD Got back home around 6 as the train left at 5:30 and biked back to campus. Had dinner with Benji at local on-campus restaurant where we can use campus money to eat and had lovely halibut dinner with pomme mousseline (mashed potatoes, I discovered) and the Double Chocolate Mousse cake we both love. /dies from happy/ Came back to the dorm and watched Zim (all that I have - 3 seasons worth) and was even more happy. Tomorrow I have to work and go to a RAFT meeting to shoot a mockumentary about WindowLickers. This weekend now officially rocks as I also got to talk to my parents, my younger cousin, and my grandmother (it was her birthday today so I called to tell her how much I love her and wish her happiness). I have story to write now because my younger cousin is demanding that I write more on my backstory for Eolian. I should also write story for The 23rd and draw more, but tomorrow is work. ... Roomies are out tonight - room is mine! xD I'm posting this early Sunday morning, but I'm still labeling it Saturday because I be lazy bum.
BGM: Last Song, Laura Dawn
I just had the most freaking amazing day in Los Angeles with Benji. We woke up at 8 and left campus at 8:30 to catch the 8:59 AM Metro to LA. Then we found that the depot wasn't open and began to freak, then decided we'd just try to barter our way onto the train, then we found the automated tellers and felt silly. We waited and realized that the train actually didn't come until 9:30/10:00 because the online Metro page is Stoopid. On the train ride over we read school books and I sat next to this guy who was so out of it, that I laughed. He had a fruit punch drink bottle with him and woke up once to pick it up, then promptly fell asleep again. He woke up to open the bottle and fell asleep, then dropped it and woke up again. It didn't spill, but he looked confused that the bottle was gone and fell asleep again. I love LA.
Benji just came over to continue our Invader Zim marathon, so I'll post more later. XD I love today.
Friday 3 October 2003
BGM: 3AM [Acoustic], Matchbox 20
This is why I love living with cats. Really. I do. Zonkboard will be leaving in about seven days because the service is no longer free. Oh well.
BGM: Lively Motion, Hayashibara Megumi
Had my first in-class essay on Tuesday for Elizabethan Shakespeare and it was scary with Blue Books and whatnot. Yet there was much happiness yesterday with the return of the Blue Books. I got a B+! XD Was happy as that's a pretty good grade for a frosh in an upper division course. This morning I woke up about 10 minutes before class had to start (I've actually been doing really well with waking up until today ><) and sped down to Mason to make Japanese class on time. Unfortunately I misjudged the space between a parked construction flatbed truck and the curb and I ran into the truck. More like glanced off it with a large sound of BANG and "OW, CRAP IT ALL", but I'm fine - no bruises and no serious injuries. Just sort of...funny in a way. My friend Barbara was walking in front of me and as she describes it all she heard was an "OW!" from behind and a bang. I didn't fall off my bike though! Am proud of me.
Tomorrow there's some sort of ballroom dancing instruction dance going on over at Harvey Mudd so I'm going to head over there to have some fun. Having no Friday classes is very very cool.
I just came back from watching The Pirates of the Caribbean on the 'big screen' at the Claremont McKenna pool. It was a lot of fun. Went with Benji and Hika (who needs to post more often) to see it then we scooted down to the Coop (the Pomona 'coffeehouse') for chicken tenders and curly fries. XD Then we played a variant of pool until now. It was fun and since it was practically my first time ever playing pool the good luck-ness of the day held out and I won. XD
One bad thing other than the me hitting the truck happened today. I opened up my backpack to get a pencil out while playing pool and found a huge spider sitting in my backpack making a web. It lunged at my fingers and I freaked out. Thankfully Benji killed it and both she and Hika helped calm me down - I have extreme arachniphobia for those of you who didn't know. I haven't seen any all month and then whammo! one was living in my backpack, a place I consider pretty safe. It was scary, but I'm okay now. I just froze and started huffing and screamed really loudly in my "CRAP" voice. You know, the voice you get when you're scared witless and thinking every little twitch you feel is another spider trying to eat your brains and soul?
...
Maybe that's just me.
Wednesday 1 October 2003
BGM: None
HA! is all I have to say to this. Now I must run and read a crapload of stuff and do Japanese homework. Damn me and damn my ways.
BGM: None
I'm a bad person and the used book/antique book store in town is yet another version of Evil!Genki that ate my money. ...fifty dollars worth... But I now own three books worth of research material into mythology (wouldn't that be a nifty spiffy job to have?) and one book of fairy tales "Sintram and His Companions" and "Undine." Uber-spiffy as it was printed in 1925. I love old books. They have a distinctive, homey scent to them that I just find appealing. ... No, I don't sniff books, it's a general aroma you get when you walk into book stores. ... Yeah.
Also picked up Coraline to see if I can use it for my research project. I think it'd be interesting as it has to do with houses, family, etc. And then Benji and I (Benji suffered the perils of the Evil!Genki bookstore with me) found a tea house shop and we both bought loose tea, containers, and tea strainers. I've been missing tea. /cuddles tea container/ It's blue with sakura on it. XD
The lady at the Evil!Genki bookstore was uber-cool. She knew almost everything about her books. O.o Like in the Ollivander sense. O.o Benji was buying Dante's "Paradise" (a REALLY old version with cut pages to boot) and the lady looked at it and said, "Oh, a -such and such- book." Then proceeded to give us a somewhat detailed history of the book, its former owners, and why it was generally spiffy. xD That store made me so happy, but it ate my money and I had to use my check card. Sort of the reason why I have a check card, but still... Entertainment is not something I normally spend money on - it's usually only food and necessities. Some would argue that books are a necessity.
I love those people.
BGM: Daybreak ~ Yoru wo Kakenukero
I shouldn't be awake!
BGM: Snow Drop, L'Arc
And because I'm weird, I'm going to write my journal ala Mr. Cheeky's style. Go Babelfish and your idiocy!
As for me therefore you look at my art, ' are good ' expectant of the people who are called really it is not proper. My that you happen because your own, should be pulled, but? Rarely. So, as for me who should and am those which are thought concerning my art to the people who why worry so? My me has the necessity to be approved by the other people being to have that kind of low pride, it is that? God me has posted just in order to see, really you know this Babelfish how can fail that badly.
XD So that entry is half angst, half amusement for me. Go Mr. Cheeky. And everyone should go see wiredGirl's new Oct. layout because it kicks major arse and I love her background image. XD I LOVE IT.
Tuesday 30 September 2003
BGM: Juuni Genmu Kyoku [acoustic]
And the happiness increases! My Writing 50 teacher just told me that as long as I can do character study on the Endless I can write a research paper on Neil Gaiman's Sandman! XDDD Or else Coraline or American Gods or something! XDDDDDDDD Neil Gaiman research paper! XDDD
BGM: 9th Symphony [Choral], Beethoven
XD OMG! /looks at it again/ OMG! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Monday 29 September 2003
BGM: Anger melting my brain
Okay, I'm not even going to warn you about my bitchmode this time. I just talked to the girl who I gave my artpiece to and asked for it back. She timidly told me that she couldn't give it back. This should have been my cue to strangle the world, but I calmly asked her why. She said she put it through a feeder-scanner and it got stuck. It ripped in half. It no longer existed.
...
Right then I wished my eyes shot lasers. I told her "I would have appreciated it if you would have told me sooner," with venom seeping through my voice I'm sure because she shrank slightly and told me this: "I would have, but it only happened last night." I let it go, then as I was biking back to school I realized something. It only happened last night. She !&*(#%280701 took it from me a week ago. WHAT THE HOLY F*CK?! If she was going to f*ckin' scan it in a week later she could have let me keep it, finish it off and scan it into Nataku who WOULD NOT HAVE EATEN MY F'CKIN' ARTWORK. I actually liked the piece. I actually LIKED the piece. Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to LIKE a piece of my art? It's like dislodging sticks up people's asses for god's sake.
I'm pissed. I'm so pissed that I swear to you I want to kill something. Am I going to have to become an Art Bitch just to keep my stuff safe from now on? I told her to be careful with it. She even told me she wouldn't draw on it and with the presumption that she stuck the paper in the scanner it means that she did. I am SO FUCKING PISSED FUCKING OFF.
You know I'm really ticked off when I cuss as much as I just did. Someone tell me the reason why I don't just go malfunctioning SIR on the world. For those of you who don't know Invader Zim, that means give me one good reason why not to become a Homocidal Maniac.
Sunday 28 September 2003
BGM: Track 13, L'Arc~en~Ciel
It's pain, pure pure pain, but I'm going to do it anyway. Blame Hsiu even though she told me not to take it. XD I'm being evil and passing the buck. I should be reading Rosseau as I have a paper due tomorrow and it's taken my roommate three days to write it. I have one night. I hate myself.
YOUR NAME
...no.
(1) The singular boring question: ...no.
(2) If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been?: ...I have no idea. I would have liked to be an Ian or something really interesting, but I can't think of anything right now. Maybe Erin or something? Who knows.
(3) Would you name a child of yours after you?: I'm already confused enough as it is, and this question assumes that I would ever consider spawning children. Eww.
(4) If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with?: I'm actually rather partial to my name... I might switch with Geri because I like andryogynous names?
(5) What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?: ...my last name...too many to list.
(6) If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name?: I like my last name, people should learn to say it right before I rain evil doom down upon their heads.
DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
Somehow I doubt this.
(7) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Theologically no because I'm Buddhist. In literature, it all depends on what you say is traditional. I like reinventing Hell to fit my twisted little needs.
(8) Do you think God has a gender?: If I believed in God I'd say no. Since I don't, I still say no.
(9) Do you think science counteracts religion?: ...no?
(10) Do you believe in organized religion?: /points to question 7/
(11) Where do you think we go when we die?: In the ground, of that I'm fairly certain. Unless you get cremated, then you're stuck in a wall.
(12) Do you feel a little funny thinking about the questions in this section?: I'd only feel 'funny' if you asked 'funny' questions.
HUMOUR
is subjective.
(13) How easy is it to make you laugh?: Depends on how hyper or how funny the joke/action is.
(14) What person you know makes you laugh the most?: Just about anyone.
(15) Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn't?: If it's a joke, laugh - unless it's stupid, then pelt the person with heavy books.
(16) Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn't?: I have dark humor, take a hint.
(17) What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile?: Taco or Jhonny. If you don't know Jhonen, you just won't get it.
(18) What do you think is the funniest thing you've ever said or written?: I say things randomly. If they're funny, then they're funny. Stupidity wise: "The people in that cult had so much to live for...but they can't anymore 'cause they're dead."
MUSIC
Death to pop.
(19) Do you ever dance to music when nobody's watching?: I dance when people are watching, too. <- haha, what she said.
Ditto.
(20) What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard?: /growls and stabs pop with a double-edged sword/ I generally just don't like it when the song is entirely about vapid things like "are my boobs bouncy?"
(21) What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better?: ... Japanese songs. I love L'Arc.
(22) What song(s) are constantly in your head?: "Lies and Truth" and whatever last played on Winamp - including dramas.
(23)What song(s) do you think describe your personality best?: ...I have no clue. I don't know my own personality.
(24) If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s) would you use?: I have no affections.
(25) If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used?: See above.
MOVIES
Whee.
(26) What movie(s) do you love that nobody else seems to?: ... I don't know. Red Dwarf? Not a movie...damn me.
(27) Do you agree with the idea that sequels are always worse than the original?: Not all the time, but mostly.
(28) Who's your favorite Star Wars character?: ...all of them. Except the new trilogy, someone shoot Lucas if he EVER tries to write another script. Otherwise I love the man.
(29) What kind of movie do you think there should be more of?: Something with a plot.
(30) What movie(s) do you simply not understand the appeal of?: Chick flicks. <--indeed. People, you know they're going to end up together - get over it.
FOOD
Gluttony is a sin I'm heavily wrapped in.
(31) When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness?: Taste. I actually like my vegetables.
(32) What's your favorite kind of cheese?: Sharp cheddar. Put that on salami, dip a mini carrot in ranch dip put that on top with two olives on either end and you've got an insta-meal.
(33) What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality?: ...I still say I don't know my own personality. And why would cheese matter?
(34) If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food, hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it?: It's food - go for it.
(35) Do you ever feel guilty eating meat?: /takes a huge bite of steak/ Rawr.
COMPUTERS
Assimilate! ASSIMILATE!
(36) Mac or PC?: Used both, liked 'em both. Windows is the Devil, Mac is hard to use.
(37) How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer, as long as it works?: I like seeing it when it comes apart - that's fun.
(38) Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation?: Eh. Contact is overrated?
(39) Do you find you're different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone?: ...I hardly ever talk to people on the telephone and I use far too many emoticons for my own good on IMs.
(40) Have you ever ended bid on something on eBay and regretted it later?: Never did it. Probably never will.
THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
Please, just kill each other and get it over with.
(41) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender?: Yes. I'd rather be genderless though. Less stress that way.
(43) What do you dislike most about the other gender?: The fact that they're them.
(44) What do you understand least about the other gender?: See above. Generally, however, I don't understand my own gender and want to strangle them both.
CELEBRITIES
Or the American Gods. /sighs/
(45) Do you sometimes see a movie or watch a show just because a good-looking celebrity is in it?: Rarely. Sometimes if they're pretty and I've also heard good things about the movie - I rarely get attached to specific celebrities at all.
(46) What celebrity's autograph do you want most?: Morgan Freeman or (recently) Neil Gaiman. I need to read his books.
(47) Have people ever said you looked like a celebrity, and if so, who?: Never, but I apparently look like every Asian on the planet.
(48) If there was to be a movie about you, who do you think should play you (in personality, looks or both)?: I'm far too boring to be made into a movie.
(49) Does it ever annoy you when you know someone is a celebrity but you can't remember why?: ...rarely.
(50) If you could enter any celebrity's mind like in "Being John Malkovich", whose would you enter?: Eh, my mind is screwed up enough without having to pretend I'm someone else.
(51) Do you want to be John Malkovich?: Only if I get spat out on the New Jersey Turnpike and get crushed by the whizzing cars. That might be fun.
NUMBERS
...letters. bwargh.
(52) Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69?: ...it's a number.
(53) Were you lying about your answer to the previous question?: No, I didn't really answer the previous question.
(54) Do you actually know your Social Security Number?: College forced me to.
(55) Do you actually know your IP address?: No, but I've seen it.
(56) Do you know what an IP address is?: I'm a geek, get over it.
(57) Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code?: Indeed.
(58) Ever thought there were too many numbers floating around in our lives?: No because I've never seen numbers float.
(59) Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity, imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.?: I like infinity. It's fun.
(60) What do you think of pi?: It's a lovely thing.
LOVE, SEX AND ALL THAT
Something I will never understand or partake in.
(61) Did you get a little frightened or uncomfortable seeing this as a section title?: Why would I?
(62) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: I'd get embarrassed and then wonder why they were interested since there's nothing here to be interested in. I've never dated, I hold the belief that it will never happen.
(63) Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going in "blind"?: Never dated and I'm seriously considering become asexual if I haven't done it already.
(64) Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member?: See above.
(65) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: .../sighs/ Never dated, don't care.
(66) What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?: Don't care - if it's your thing, it's your thing. I'd probably never do it, but seeing as I'll grow up to be an old person with cats, the question is null.
(67) Is physical attractiveness important?: Sure, but it's not the most important thing.
(68) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking?: /dies laughing/ Sure, that's why I've never dated and I'm freakin' asexual, you bastard.
(69) Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last?: ASEXUALITY. NOT DATING EVER.
(70) Do you think the number of the last question was a coincidence?: It's a number, get over your dirty-minded self.
POSSESSIONS
Material wealth will buy everything including a happiness inducing brain probe.
(71) What is your favorite possession?: My blanket. It's older than I am.
(72) What physical, tangible possession do you want most?: Money. Lots of money. I need to feed my obsessions.
(73) How badly do you want it?: Enough to know I'll never get it.
(74) Have you ever seen 'The Exorcist'?: Yes. I like split pea soup.
(75) How long did it take you to understand why the last question is in this section?: Two seconds, after you asked this question. And now I wish I were possessed so I could eat your spicy brains.
HOLIDAYS
Commercialism running rampant, in other words.
(76) Does Christmas music too far away from Christmas annoy you?: No, as long as it's not sung off-key and badly.
(77) How old do you think you will be before you stop liking getting older?: When I'm dead.
(78) What was the best Halloween costume you ever had?: I like my costumes, otherwise I wouldn't wear them. Sometimes I go about in my Grim Reaper outfit just for the hell of it. It scares children. It's fun.
(79) What was the worst Halloween costume you ever had?: ...I really don't remember. At the time I probably thought it was a good idea.
(80) What holiday do you think has still managed to retain its original meaning?: I can't think right now.
(81) There are currently no federal holidays during August- what should be put there?: ... Anarchy Day.
MEMORIES
/goes to find a cat/
(82) How good is your short-term memory?: What was the question again?
(83) How good is your long-term memory?: 42.
(84) What is your earliest memory?: I don't remember the chronology of any of my memories...but do I remember my first dream ever.
(85) What is your happiest memory : ...someone asked me this once two years ago and I'm still trying to come up with an answer.
(86) What is your strangest memory?: ...I don't think my memories are strange, what drugs are YOU taking?
(87) What song, movie, etc. do you wish you could memorize?: LotR: trilogy.
TEARS
... no.
(88) What movie makes/made you cry?: AI, but only once. Pay It Forward, every time.
(89) What book makes/made you cry?: The Little Prince. The Cat that Went to Heaven. /cries/
(90) What song makes/made you cry?: Depends on my mood.
(91) What makes/made you laugh so hard you cried?: My friends.
THREE TRULY RANDOM QUESTIONS
Randomosity is the only thing left I have to look forward to in this.
(92) Would you like to be cloned?: Yes, so I could kill the clone for trying to take my identity and I couldn't be pinned for murder - only suicide.
(93) Do you wish you could be alive when the world was ending, just to experience it?: Hell yeah. Then I could sit back and laugh my ass off at the humans as they flee from the doom raining down on them, sip a refreshing beverage and joke with Mother Nature about how we should have done it sooner.
(94) Scaramouche, scaramouche, will you do the fandango?: I hate the fandango.
THIS SURVEY
/cough/sucks/cough/
(95) Do you think that one hundred and one questions is too long?: Only if they're stupid.
(96) Do you think the one hundred interesting questions actually were interesting?: Just like every other survey in most respects.
(97) Are you sorry you began filling it out?: ...pain.
(98) What question do you wish it had asked?: Are you the AntiChrist?
(99) How would you have answered it?: No, Fuuma is - I'm just helping him.
THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS
Somehow, I doubt this.
(100) When was the last time you let the people you love know you love them?: They know.
(101) What do you want the people who are reading this survey to know?: ... 42 is a good number.
Friday 26 September 2003
BGM: silence...golden, dead air silence
Somehow...this works...
BGM: silence...golden, dead air silence
Layout. Newspaper layout took three hours over what it was supposed to be. I'm dead. Will be dead probably all weekend. Crap. Papers. Homework. /dies/
Wednesday 24 September 2003
BGM: The Great Disappointment, AFI
So I finally decided that since I spend so much time at dA anyway that I should get an account. And I did. Not really anything stunningly new over there, mostly just what was in Whispered Nothings thrown over to another site, but once I start drawing again and stop being in such a slump I'll probably update there first and then move it to WN as dA makes it surprisingly easy to upload. Yay for them.
Plus, anytime I ever feel like ranting again, just tell me to shut up, okay? I'll love you all for it, I swear I will. XD
Tuesday 23 September 2003
BGM: I Feel You, 3 Doors Down
<bitchmode> This is completely hypocritical of me, but I'm going to say it anyway. I hate my art. I really do. I just told someone else that everyone goes through these periods and that she shouldn't worry about her art because it's beautiful (and it is). Now here I am whining about how much I hate my own art, but really...I do. No need to comment on this anyone, as I don't think many people visit here with the intention of actually reading this blog. Thanks to those that do though, you keep me posting here. Otherwise I'd probably just shut it down and go home. Oddly enough a lot of people find this blog for the most random reasons like Juuni Kokki smutfic which doesn't exist because in the JuuKo world there is no sex. Get over it people, they get their little kiddies off trees and talking about sex grosses them all out. So yes, no sex for anyone with the possible exception of Youko, but even so - there's no one to be the partner so that kills it unless you're kinky like that.
The real reason I'm so depressed is that someone commissioned art from me and really made me feel like I had a reason to be an artist. So I was planning it along in my head when she tells me she needed it the next day. I felt bad but I had to tell that it was impossible - I just don't work that fast. Sometimes it takes me three days just to sketch something out, but she said she understood and would talk to me later about it. Two days later I had finished a prelim sketch and she shows up and says she needs the artwork NOW. So I showed her a bit of it (I hadn't actually finished all the sketching, rough lines, boxes, etc. were still there) and said I could finish it off and ink it tonight if she wanted. That's when I noticed the look on her face that just read, "Oh hell, how do I tell this girl how much I don't like her art at all?" Of course I stood there being the cheery idiot I have to be in those situations and said, "If there's anything you'd like me to change, I'll do it and get it to you tomorrow." She said she needed it tonight and I told her I could do that, but she told me no - she needed it now. Then she asked if she could take the art and redo it herself (which is initially what she was supposed to have done since it's her responsibility she handed off to me to draw a mascot for a group on campus) and that the character I drew was 'too Asian-looking' for an Asian club.
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Sure thing. If I suck arse as an artist, just tell me. At that point I felt rather crushed and when she asked to take it I said yes without even thinking and only asked her to return it to me later. After she left I realized I had done a stupid, stupid thing. I had just given away art that was UNSIGNED to someone who was going to use it and modify it for her own purposes. Even if I'm a shit-artist, I'd like to be given credit so if I'm not I'm going to go postal and I hate doing that. I still haven't heard back from her and I worry intensely over little things like this so I've been getting stomach problems lately.
Long short of it: my art sucks and I'm having a shitty day. Forgive me all, but sometimes even I need to rant about what's bothering me. </bitchmode>
I found some good art sites on DA if anyone is interested and the first script to Pirates of the Caribbean thanks to Benji. Thank you, Bridget-san for your compliments. ^_^ I love your blog too. I'm really rooting for you on the job in Japan because you're cool and Hika tells me that you're uber-cool. XD If I ever feel like drawing again the next layout will be either Sirius (darkish) or another Nataku picture with him as my Rose Bride. I might do that later as I really need a pick-me-up in my day.
I hate ranting.
Sunday 21 September 2003
BGM: faaaaaans, lovely fans
I'm so proud of me. I made an Utena wallpaper that doesn't suck as much as my other ones have sucked. XD I like it enough to post it online, that counts for something. X_x It's huge.
BGM: So Far Away, Stabbing Westward
The most amusing thing happened today. Star guide (aka Benji), a mutual friend, and I went to the Village to study Japanese together over lunch. Pleasant time that was, but then we started reviewing homework. We're talking about what we had gotten wrong and Benji realized she had written the wrong verb for "seeing someone off" as in going to drop them off and make sure they get where they're going safely. So she's sitting there trying to figure out how to translate the correct sentence and shes comes up with this: "I came in order to see my brother get off."
XD Benji darling, your Mickey loves you. XD Took the Feminine Gay Man quiz with her and she got Benji, I got Mickey. Thus a new nickname was born. XDDD
Went to the compy lab today to help my newspaper editors/friends teach Pagemaker to people. Yay. It was 104 degrees outside. Not yay. So I wore my yukata. And was stared at. Don't care. XD Yay!
Saturday 20 September 2003
BGM: Anthem Part 2, Blink 182
Whenever I get my own house and I get enough money, I'm building a freakin' sound-proof bathroom. I can't stand it when someone can hear me or I can hear someone else outside the bathroom when I'm in it. Never mind the sound-proof studio or private anything, I want a bathroom so damn secluded that the CIA can't hear what's going on inside.
My roommates are gone...and I'm significantly uninteresting as Ravioli remarks. I just don't hurt myself enough or do anything of any real note. Sort of a statement on my life I suppose. Not bright enough to leave a mark in the sky, not dim enough to just slink off into the corner and disappear. I'm just a little depressed today and I know why, but I'm not telling because I'm mature like that. I think the roomies went to the mall, but I can't tell for certain. Crapload of homework to do that I'm still avoiding. Go Rosseau.
This layout is unbearably pink...but it works? I don't know, someone tell me quickly so I can work on my belated Sirius image and get a dark layout back up. XO I know they're difficult to read, but seriously folks - aren't they pretty? I can't wait to get my Taiki outfit done for Halloween and to go home and see my folks and my brother. I feel like I should be doing something important and yet I know that I never will in all my life. I'm being fatalistic, bear with me. I'm normally like this, but I just don't post when I'm in that mood. It just happened to bear down on me like a two-ton weight right now and for the life of me I don't know why.
XD I did however find the web-comic site that I just adored and then lost the link for! Jinks is a great comic and now the artist is putting up Nice Hair which is hilarious because it has people like Neil Gaiman and Tim Burton in it even though it's not techinically them. XD Plus it's drawn in Jhonen Vasquez style and we all know how much I ADORE him. I need to buy Jhonny the Homocidal Maniac just so I can show my roommates how funny that comic is. XD
BGM: Strength, Koizumi Kohei
OH MY HOLY CRACK. Kohei-sama is about 4 years older than I am. XDDD I could so marry his pretty arse. XD You have to see him! So. Damn. PRETTY.
And wiredGirl, you make me so uber-happy. I'm going to keep imagining that there is in fact a bulge because that would put me into happy seizures and I need that. XDDDD Thank you for making my life.
Friday 19 September 2003
BGM: Snow Drop [Ray Mix], L'Arc
This is my first fanart in almost a year and a half. O_o Also, a great fanart is here by wiredGirl who is one of my new idols. XD Her art is great, her sense of humor is just god-sent. People should visit her DA site. She got me addicted to them. XD
I archived! And this layout is mostly to reward people for the 2500 hit thing...actually, it's my first fanart layout. O.o It sucks. xO Geh geh.
Went and saw the Cowboy Bebop movie again and yes, I finally sat through it and looked for the symbolism rather than just marveled at its beauty. XD Yoko Kanno, Cowboy Bebop team, we love you dearly. Vincent, you just needed a hug. A Really Big Hug. The plot of Bebop has become more and more popular though, the questioning of reality and whether or not this reality we seem to live in is indeed the best for us. After all, what is reality other than our human perceptions of facts and objects?
.... Oh. My. God. That's such a Core statement. XOOOO NO! It's not possible that Core (the discussion/lecture series mandatory for all of my college's students) could make me be all philosophical! XOOO ...crap. Ah, well. The Enlightenment was a cool period, let's give it it's props. Quote of the week came yet again from my Core discussion leader: "Rosseau is an acquired taste; like bitter medicine or ." It's classic just to hear Rosseau being compared to goose liver pate (I know I spelled that wrong).
But yes, anime. I met a group of people at the showing and they are indeed very cool and one girl (Eliza) said she raises me to demi-god status because I do Xelloss cosplay. XD Yay for me? I need to make a better staff for that outfit... And redo the clasp, but first is the Taiki cosplay. XD So yes, Cowboy Bebop once again revives me from school hell and anime gives me more reason to live. Of all the things I really miss is being able to see my anime collection (however small) sitting on my wall and my cosplay in the closet. The knowledge that if I wanted to it was there was quite comforting.
XDDD I got to talk to my brother today and I will be able to see him come Fall Break. XDDD I love my brother and I miss him a lot so this is very exciting for me. I have to finish some art right now, as well as homework, plus I have a Choir retreat tomorrow so maybe I'll finally learn my part of Beethoven. >o< I've been mouthing the words only for about a week... I feel stupid. I wonder if I should get a LJ too...so many of my friends have them and I'd rather like to be able to comment without the ugly "anonymous" name. Art tonight, work tomorrow and Sunday! Manga to finish, a commissioned work to do... Geh geh. I feel dead. O_O I just realized I completely forgot to do something. DAMMIT.